Are you ready for it?
In my last post I talked about differences between resolutions and goals, so let’s get into it. When people say the classic, cliche line “this is going to be MY year,” eyes everywhere roll. But I genuinely feel like this is going to be the year that so many things happen for me. Last year damaged my heart and soul, but with that, came with the opportunity to rebuild it. COUNTLESS people exited my life, both on their own and also, by me showing them the exit sign.
I recently saw a post that said “whatever picture you have painted of me, hang that shit up on the wall.” This scratched my brain sooo good. During my treatment in a Cognitive Behavioral Theory Program (CBT), the main focus was to develop skills necessary to manage depression and anxiety symptoms that interfere with life functioning. Details on that will be saved for a future post. The program truly changed my life and the biggest take away was, if you’re not able to help yourself, and love yourself, how the fuck can you expect to get the love and help you deserve from others?
It’s three weeks into January and I am beyond proud of myself. The amount of things I have set up for myself this year already is just awesome. First of all, I wanted to reconnect with God. Reading the Bible daily has enable me to relate to verses and deeper the meaning of life in my eyes. I find it extremely soul healing and empowering. My values have been re-affirmed and I have accepted that life is a series of forgiveness amongst your own being and with others.
Next, this is the first year I have not been an enrolled student in a long time, besides the gap between my B.A and MPA alongside COVID-19. Working in politics, I’m constantly reminded that the more knowledge you have on the past will help solidify the future. I have an incredible book on basic American history, a timeline taught when we were so young. Re-learning details of hardship, war, political indifference has just been so fucking great to get back into. Who knows, maybe I’ll be running the show one day. Also with learning- my little sisters inspire me the MOST of anyone out there. One-9, knows sign language as if it’s her first. The other- 11, is almost fluent in French. Dualingo is cool, but my Nintendo DS French tutor is wayyyyy cooler.
Imagine me, a genius (playboy billionaire philanthropist) being top in the game with what the fuck is going on in the world, add speaking French to all I have to offer now? How sexy can I get? So much to give to YOURSELF and I am thrilled to eventually give that to someone who acknowledges all of this. I’d regret to not mention also having my new kitten boy in my life. He has been so great for Ozzy, giving him company he deserves. The responsibility of making sure a living being has a great life has been very healing for me personally.
In conclusion. 2025 is the year of the Snake, honorable mention that some of the coolest fucking people were born on past snake years: RDJ (that man raised me), JFK (loml), J.K. Rowling and…… Taylor Allison Swift. Reputation (CV) is coming, and while some may never change, maybe they’re supposed to stay the same ;)
